So, the other day I was at a concert and the singer told us this story about how they met a happy newlywed couple at one of their shows. A year later they got a letter from the husband of this couple saying how they got a divorce because he cheated on his wife, and then expressed his appreciation for the band and continued by asking them to write a song about forgiveness, hope, yadda yadda yadda.. Good for him.

And that got me thinking....

Why do we feel the need to write to bands and express our feelings to them and tell them how they changed our life? I mean, don't get me wrong- there are DEFINITELY some bands/songs that changed and shaped my life and that I feel a strong connection/bond with. But I don't think I would ever write them a letter and tell them that. Maybe I'm just an ungrateful fan, or maybe I realize that they didn't write the song just for me, so I'm not about to sit down and write them a letter of gratitude (let's be honest, the only people getting letters from me these days are my two 'child" left on the mission...and they only get emails....).

With this is mind, I want to discuss an obsession of mine (yes, just one. I have too many). Although it's difficult for me to choose favorites in life (because it really depends on my mood), I've come to determine that my overall favorite band of all time is U2. This past May, my life-long dream/goal of experiencing their awesomeness in person came true (see U2 in concert... done and done.) oh man..I'm smiling RIGHT NOW just thinking about it! Retro-actively LOVE my life..Just look how happy I am:

I LOVE U2. I love that every time you tell someone that you love them back you say "I love you, too" . I love that when you hold up a peace sign it's like saying U2 (and representing peace and all of Asia - another love of mine). I love that anytime someone tells you "have a good day" (etc) you say "you too" back to them. See! It's great. I would say Bono and the The Edge did this on purpose, but I know the real story. They have music to match almost every single one of my moods. Just this morning I was feeling kind lazy and then Pandora played a U2 song that just got me so motivated for life. It was joyous.

The one song that seems to be my anthem in life right now is  "I Still Haven't Found What I'm looking For" Upon further study of the rest of the lyrics [cause although I might know every word while I'm actually SINGING ALONG with the song , I rarely pay enough attention to the words to really understand what it's saying (this has caused me to be appalled and shocked by some songs when I ACTUALLY read the lyrics and understand it... but...that's another story)]

So anyway... the WHOLE POINT to this blog post (cause let's be honest- there a myriad of topics I could address in this post ESPECIALLY since I haven't posted anything for the past 5 or so months...and I choose this?.......yeah......anyway........) is that even though I'm technically alive, I'm still trying to put together the pieces of my discombobulated life. And I constantly feel like "I still haven't found what I'm looking for". FOR REAL.  In all aspects in life is this true for me right now: Grad Schools,  boys (thanks everyone for your concern. I know I'm an old spinster in Mormon land......awesome), Jobs (ESPECIALLY jobs), etc, etc...


Please answer the following question:

Hilary is to success/purpose in life as:


A.Lady Gaga is to complete normalcy
B. BYU is to successfully receiving and holding onto a ball
C.Gigli is to winning an Oscar for best picture
D. The Titanic is to sailing across the Atlantic
E.  A, C and D
F. F M L

Congratulations!  5 points to you. You answered correctly.

So yes... I still haven't found what I'm looking for... but I also kinda love my life at the same time. I mean, just look at the song- look at all the cool things I've done in the mean time:

I have climbed highest mountains
I have run through the fields
I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil

Maybe I haven't done exactly that...but you get the point. Regardless of how I feel about my life in my most "depressed" moods, overall life is just a grand adventure (that's why I say it's "just grand" a lot). And I really do love it.  I have hope for the future. It's always brighter than you think. Especially when you involve Heavenly Father. Prayer is LEGIT. Try and out and see how legit it is.

Now, I must go find whatever it is I'm looking for (which is actually currently my punching board for bookbinding...).